Monday, April 25, 2011

Back to school, back to school...

First day back today... I'm exhausted! 

It was a long day, but I was glad to see my kids. They were so sweet today! They are always good to me after I'm out (I was out the day before vacation), I think subs make them appreciate just how good I am to them. I got so many compliments on my new hair today, it made me feel really good especially since I spent 20 minutes this morning with the blow dryer and straightener just trying to get the bangs to work (as cute as it make look when styled right... it is a major pain to deal with!). 

While I loved being back, being this close to the end of the school year kinda scares me...especially since I don't know my fate. My school is, like many others, suffering from tremendous budget cuts. And as a new teacher... that means I'm on the proverbial chopping block. Last year I was too... but I never felt this nervous. I guess I had this sense last year that I was "safe" and I would make it... I don't have that this year. They've literally cut everything they can already... unless the school board is feeling generous... I have a feeling I will be out of a job :( So, I'm doing what any responsible teacher will do, I'm applying... and applying...and praying. I don't entirely love my district... or my school for that matter... but I do love my program, and the teachers I work closely with... and I love my kids. The thing I love most is that I get them for all three years of middle school... I don't want to give that up! I've had 2 years with my current 7th and 8th graders. I want to see them all graduate from high school... I want to see my 6th graders when they are in 8th grade, and it kills me that I might not get to see that. Right now feels so bittersweet to me. I'm enjoying these last few months at school... but I'm also wondering if it is going to be my last in this job.

1 comment:

  1. I HATE all these cut backs!! I really hope everything goes OK for you, please keep us posted!

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