Sunday, July 31, 2011

Thank You

Thank you to everyone who commented on my post about my grandfather's death. Your kind words and support really mean a lot to me. Today was his wake which managed to both heart-breaking and heart-mending at the same time. While it was horrible to see him and truly acknowledge that he is gone, it also let me see him and truly acknowledge that he is gone. I've been going around this week knowing that he really is dead, but not really believing it. While it was hard to be there, it felt like a good step in the healing process.

Tomorrow morning we are going back the funeral home for our final good-byes and then having the actual funeral. While I know it will be another long and exhausting day, I know it is what we all need, and that I will feel better when it is done.

Tomorrow I also have to do a reading at the funeral. Which terrifies me. I know the place will be packed (the wake was packed today too, my grandfather was a very loved person) and I will have to stand up in front of everyone, hold back my tears, and read aloud... it will be tough, but he would have love it. I know he is looking down on us and adoring all the attention he has been getting. He would be so proud to see his whole family gathered together and to see all the friends and family that showed up to pay their respects.

On a more entertaining front. Today my whole family watched a home video of one of my cousin's 1st birthday. The best part? After the party where we get to watch my older cousin drop my then 1-year-old sister on her face... priceless. Having my cousin rewind the tape 6 or 7 times so we could relive the moment again and again? Tremendous. Absolutly tremendous.

2 comments:

  1. So sorry to hear of your grandfather's passing. Praying for you and your family.

    Many blessings,
    Rosann
    http://www.christiansupermom.com/

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  2. I'm so sorry to hear about your grandfather. I know exactly what you mean about the strange comfort of seeing his body. When my grandmother died, I was amazed at how much her body didn't look like her, and I realized it was because I'd never seen her 1) not smiling or 2) not moving. It confirmed me for me that her spirit and liveliness was the essence of who she was, and that that part of her had moved on.

    I hope you are finding the time to grieve and heal.

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