Wednesday, February 4, 2015

Birth Plans and Hospital Bags

* I originally wrote this about 2 months ago... and never finished it. Oh, and I still haven't packed my hospital bag... I really should get on that soon consider there's only 3 1/2 weeks until D day.

A couple of weeks ago I realized that I should probably start to think about my hospital bag since last time I packed it right as we headed to the hospital. It was easy last time because  we lived about 10 minutes from the hospital and there was a 95% chance I would be at home when I went into labor- I wasn't worried. This time we live 40ish minutes from the hospital and I could go into labor at home, at work, or on the road in between. Meaning I have to have a bag ready to go and with me for these last couple of weeks. Even more important, I need to have things ready for Fynn so that she is set to go and I don't have to worry about throwing things together for her as I'm breathing through the pain and hoping to get to the hospital in time- that's the major stress part- time. Fynn's actual birth was rather quick- 4 hours of active labor and 20 minutes of pushing... and 2nd babies are usually quicker than firsts... which makes my worry about giving birth in the car on the way to the hospital not completely crazy and unnecessary. I'm trying not to stress... but that's just how I roll. 

Luckily, I know what I actually need this time and know that I won't need to pack three pairs of pants and that I should pack my nursing pillow. Packing shouldn't be hard, but I need to buy doubles of things that I'll be needing between now and baby day, so I don't spend time every day unpacking and repacking the things I need.

Now, for my birth plan- same as last time. I went into it last time wanting a natural, unmedicated birth with no one in the room besides me, Drew, and the doctors/nurses. That's the plan this time too, except we're trying to have Erin, our friend and awesome photographer, there too to get some birth images. No lady bits pix, but pictures of the experience and of course those first precious moments of meeting our baby. 

Easy enough... but I'm still a little worried (of course, because this is me). I've done this before, so I know what to expect. Which means: I KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT... and that scares me a bit. What if this labor is much longer? and I can't handle the pain? Or, worse, what if things go wrong and I can't have the birth I want? I've felt that natural high and pride that comes with unmedicated childbirth- it was the most empowering and amazing feelings I've ever had. 2 1/2 years later and I still feel in awe of myself for what I was able to do when Fynn was born. I want the exact same thing for Bentley's birth. Knowing that it might be out of my control is really hard for me to wrap my mind around, and another source of anxiety. I want to go in thinking positively, but I know I also have to be realistic that I can't control everything, even though I am a control freak. 

1 comment:

  1. That's so awesome you went unmedicated with your last birth! My epidural stopped working when it came time to push but lord almighty I am happy it worked through my contractions. I have a high pain tolerance and I thought I was going to die! That's also awesome you're going to have a photog. I think birth pictures are so beautiful!


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