|The countdown my students had going on the board for the |
past 3 months... usually there's a happy face too, but I think the
reality of being less than 20 days away was
hitting some of the kids pretty hard.
So it just felt... like an end. Except maybe not.
I might be heading back to work after vacation for a day, or even a week. A big part of me doubts it, since my doctor thinks it will probably be this week, and Fynn was born at 38 weeks 3 days... which is the day after tomorrow.
I went through the whole day with kids hugging me and saying good bye and other teachers wishing me luck. It was weird. And unsettling. And felt fake. I felt like I was saying my goodbyes without it really being goodbye.
Part of me hopes it is this week, I'm ready to be done being pregnant and if it happens this week I don't have to worry about my water breaking in front of my kids (omg this has been my biggest fear for weeks now!) or making sure I call school asap to let them know, not to mention I feel like we had our closure and going back after vacation would just be weird... I was already making people feel uncomfortable last week as I waddled down the hall.
The other part of me does not in anyway feel ready to have a baby right now. Too much to do before he gets here.
As always though, babies do what they want to do... so I guess I just have to wait and see.