Nothing like summer clothes to make you feel all hells to the no about your body 4 months postpartum. Yeah, it's a buzzkill. So, like last summer, I'm aiming to keep myself motivated and accountable my posting my workout and weight shame all over the internet. You're welcome.
Let's start with numbers. Because if I'm going to shame myself all over the internet, I might as well do so with the actual digits. Prepregnancy this time around I was back to my pre-Fynn weight of 140lbs and fitting into size 6. It felt good to finally be back at a comfortable weight. This pregnancy I gained 35 pounds, which had me clocking in at a whopping 175 lbs the day before B was born... now keep in mind, I'm 5' 2. 175 was a lot for this short stature. A week after B's birth I was at 165 and excited that 10 pounds had dropped like that. During my maternity leave I lost another 10 pounds which I can attribute to chasing after a 3 year old, nursing, and occasional "I feel fat"-fueled workouts. I also used the MyFitnessPal app for about a month which did wonders for my mindless eating problem.
That brings us to the end of May where I weighed in at 155 lbs and decided I needed to be more consistent about working out. I know I may hold onto 5-10 pounds extra because I'm nursing, but I want to be back to feeling comfortable with my body and having a little bit of tone.
Today I stepped on the scale for the first time in a month and I was down to 150 lbs... but my clothes still don't fit! Even my size 10 jeans from when I was my heaviest don't fit. Yes, I keep those around. Mainly for early/post pregnancy, but also as a reminder of how far I have come in taking care of my body.
Here's my summer plan. Like last year, I want to hold myself to working out 5 times a week. Ideally this will be during the day while both kids nap, but let's be honest and admit that often it will be done at 8pm after they go to bed for the night and that there will be nights where someone needs me until I'm too tired to stand up straight, let alone exercise... I'm a realist after all. But I'll do weekly updates over the summer of what I've done for workouts and hopefully keep myself on track. I also want to be better about tracking in MyFitnessPal as I've fallen back into my mindless eating habit and I want to kick that again.