Friday, July 31, 2015

Summer Workout Plan: Week 5

Monday: T25 Ab Intervals. I rocked this. Both kids napped at the same time (thank you nap gods!) Totally kicked butt. I finished up drenched in sweat and on Wednesday my abs were still sore which felt good. I'm a freak.

Tuesday: T25 Lower Focus. Another win. Rocked this out while B was napping in the morning which was a great start to a busy day. 

Wednesday: T25 Cardio. I didn't get the chance to workout during the day, but when Drew got home he took B to the grocery store with him and Buggy was taking a late nap so I managed to squeeze it in. Just barely. Bugs woke up as I was heading upstairs for my shower. 

Friday: T25 Total Body Circuit- Still hate it. Still sweat like crazy, so I guess it's a good workout. 

Lost a pound this week. It was probably just a matter of weighing myself after nursing, but I'll call it a success anyways. 

Thursday, July 30, 2015

Bentley is 5 Months!

He may still be a tiny peanut, but this kid is already 5 months old. This month he:


  • Moves! He can roll both ways like a pro and wiggle-worm himself in any direction he wants to go. It's hilarious, but it worries me a bit that he's going to be crawling before I know it, and that's when things get scary!
  • Talks. He is making more and more sounds and trying to copy us more. One day this month, I was being an awesome mom and bribed Fynn with a bagel from DD if she was good while my car was inspected. As we left, Fynn asked if she had been a good girl, and Bentley said "ah-no". Fynn and I just about died laughing at that one. Obviously he wasn't really saying no, but it was just the best timing. 
  • Found his toes. He loves to grab them and hold them and even just stare at him.
  • Maybe knows his name- He turns and responds to his name, so we're thinking that he somehow knows it means him.
  • Knows about his fingers. He watches them very intently as he moves them and has figured out how to grab toys and his sister's hair. He's also figured out how to get the things he has grabbed into his mouth
  • Only wakes up once a night (usually) to nurse and go right back to sleep.
  • Loves TV and any other type of screen. When Fynn was this age it was so easy to keep her away from TV... this time not so much. If the TV is on, he will roll and scoot into a position where he can see. Fynn had the iPad across the room from him the other day and within 2 minutes he had scooted over to see what she was doing.

  • Loves his Crinkle Bear... which is actually a monkey. What evs. Drew and I both thought it was a bear until their babysitter said otherwise one morning. He loves this thing and it goes in the car with us anytime we go. All you hear while driving is a steady *crinkle,crinkle,crinkle* 
  • Wearing a combination of 3-6 month and 6 month clothing. 3-6 month stuff is getting tight, but the 6 month stuff is still big. Waist-wise he fits into 3 month pants, and he's been wearing some of those on cooler days since they're not really long enough, but it works
  • He weighs about 13 pounds now. On Tuesday he weighed in at 12 lbs 14 ounces. 






Friday, July 24, 2015

Dance Class for a 3 Year Old

Last summer Buggy and I did a Mommy and Me creative movement class at a local dance studio and it was far from love for her. Despite a love of music and dancing, she just couldn't get into the class... even though it was mostly free dance with a few across the floor activities such as rolling and skipping. I don't know if it was her feeling shy and/or out of place and couldn't find her comfort zone.

Regardless of the past, Buggy said she wanted to do dance class again this summer, so I signed her up for the same class. It's a class for 2-3 year olds, so she'll be one of the older kids this summer which may help her confidence level- especially since she's physically stronger and more advanced this summer. 

The first class went pretty well. She ran out to her "spot" for warm ups and was ready to go, but then some of the other kids started flipping out about needing their moms to stand with them, so I think she got nervous and wanted me right next to her. She was a little clingy through the warm up and stretching, but when it was time to do jumps and rolls across the mat, she ran away and wanted to be first for each one. When the parachute came out, I don't even think she remembered I was there. They ended class with some freeze dance and she was running around, spinning, and having a blast.


The second class was even better. She clung for less time and after stretching she didn't even look at me until she ran over to ask me to take a picture of "all of them". The ride home both time was spent talking about how much fun she had and asking if she can go again tomorrow; so clearly she's enjoying it. I'm also loving that it's weekly mommy-Fynn time. It's great to get out of the house with just her to do something fun together. 



Wednesday, July 22, 2015

Summer Workout Plan: Week 4

It started off so well...

Monday: T25 Cardio- This one is actually getting a little easier which is making me feel like these workouts are worthwhile. 

Tuesday: T25 Speed 1.0- Ugh. I still hate this one. Not only do my calves burn and my body just hates jumping that much, but my knee started clicking halfway through, so I had to be careful that my hip didn't pop out and create some major issues.

And then it all hit the fan- Wednesday-Friday were no nap days for Fynn combined with 20 minute naps for B... by the time they were both asleep at night, I had just enough energy to eat some dinner and pass out... except they were both up a lot those nights, so sleep wasn't actually happening.

Saturday: T25: Total Body Circuit. B napped just long enough for me to rock out this workout. This is the one workout in the Alpha series that works arms and it always reminds me how I have absolutely no upper body strength. 

The scale hasn't budged in 4 weeks, but my pre-pregnancy "fat" clothes finally fit again which I guess is success? It feels like one, but it also feels like I've got a long way to go before I fit into my regular per-pregnancy clothes again... and that doesn't feel great at all.

Friday, July 17, 2015

Sometimes I should listen to my anxiety

My anxiety increases to astronomical proportions whenever I attempt new things. I worry and perseverate and often, I end up bailing on those new things because the anxiety of all that could go wrong freaks me out that I just can't do it.

Yesterday, I powered through my anxiety.

I was so proud of myself. I was invited to a play group, with moms I don't know well, at a park I've never been to, in a place I'm not comfortable driving by myself. And I did it anyway.

Since being invited last week, I've been stressing about it. I've worried about what to bring to make sure I have everything I need for both kids. I worried about where I was going to part. Whether to bring the stroller or just a carrier. I worried about getting lost on the way, or not being able to find the group when I got there. I worried about having B in the sun, or Buggy getting cranky. I worried about what to pack for lunch, so Buggy might actually eat, and about getting home in time for her nap before the exhausted-demon rears her ugly head. I laid in bed the night before filled with anxiety and imagining all the what-ifs of the situation and worried some more.

Okay, go ahead and laugh. But if you have anxiety, I know you feel me here. It may seem stupid, but this one playdate filled my head with dread for almost a week. I'm trying to work through some of my anxiety, and not let it prevent me from doing things I want to do.

So I went.

Driving was fine. Parking was fine. I found one of the moms immediately, and we had a great time. Playing occurred, and we lost track of all time. Suddenly it was 12:30, B was starving and Buggy was yelling that she needed to potty. Right. Now. So I repacked our stuff, said our goodbyes and pushed Buggy in the stroller and B in the carrier and hurried to find a bathroom. Of course, there were only port-a-potties. The first set (that we had used a little earlier) was nasty, across the park from where we were, and Buggy refused to go back to it. The second set we found was locked. We got to the third set just as another woman did. She looked at us, smirked, and rushed ahead of us to do her business while Buggy was crying that she needed to go. Classy. When she finally emerged, Buggy was squirming and the woman said "sorry, I used the rest of the toilet paper". Thanks lady.
There were no other places nearby, and Buggy refused to go to any more "yucky potties" or go outside somewhere, so we hauled our exhausted, hungry, grumpy selves back to the car and booked it out of there to look for a place with a bathroom. 

There we were, driving in a place I'm not comfortable driving. I don't know any of the local places. Buggy is sobbing that she needs to pee. B is starting to flip because he's still hungry and I'm feeling like crying because I'm overwhelmed, tried, and hungry myself.

Finally I found a place to take Buggy to the bathroom, so we scurried in at .02 miles and hour, did our thing, and got back in the car. After that, we still had a 25 minute ride home which was spent with B fussing, Buggy yelling about hating her carseat, and me regretting the outing completely. We got home eventually. An hour past nap time.


I probably should have listened to my anxiety and stayed home yesterday morning.

Wednesday, July 15, 2015

Summer Workout Plan: Week 3


Monday: Cardio Meldown (Level 1) and 1 hour of hill walking. Somehow the planets aligned and both kids napped at the same time, so I got in some Jillian time. It was a decent workout, but it wasn't as great as I remember it being. I'm not sure if that's because I'm getting into better shape, or just because it was less cardio than the T25 series so I just didn't feel as winded. That night, Drew and I took the kids for an hour long walk. Now normally, I wouldn't count a walk in my workout as I walk the dog at least once a day, but we went at a quick pace, did all the hills in our neighborhood (and that's a LOT of hills) and I had Bentley strapped on in the Ergo. Drew and I were both drenched in sweat and my legs ached, so I consider that a pretty good workout.

Tuesday: T25 Lower Focus-Another success! Fynn was at daycare and Bentley took a two hour morning nap which means I whipped out this workout, showered, dressed AND cleaned the kitchen before he got up. Talk about a good morning. I love the Lower Focus workout, pretty sure it's my favorite. It leaves me sweating and shaking and feeling like it was 25 minutes well spent.

Wednesday: T25 Speed 1.0. I hate this one. It's all speed and agility which I have none of so I spend the whole workout cursing Shaun T and feeling like a fool. Yes, yes, yes, I'm sore and sweaty after so it's clearly a good workout, but man do I hate it. 

Friday: T25 Ab Intervals- Now that I'm doing the moves correctly (or at least better) my back hurts less and my abs hurt more. 

I did it! I met my goal of working out 4 times this week. Only took 3 weeks of trying, but finally a success. Next week I'm hoping to follow the Focus T25 Alpha Workout plan which calls for 5-6 workouts a week. I'm not even going to attempt to do the double workouts on Fridays, but I will try to do the original 5 and perhaps throw in that extra workout on Saturday. Hopefully. I don't want to push too hard, but I am already feeling stronger and better about myself... even if the scale still shows those 10 extra pounds. 



Tuesday, July 14, 2015

Making time for the older sibling

A lot of my attention these days is focused on Bentley. He needs me in a way only a teeny-tiny baby can, and that often means that Fynn does not get as much of my undivided attention as she used to. The weeks that I went back to work were particularly tough and I was feeling like I wasn't giving her enough attention and that we just weren't spending enough time together.

The Friday after school got out, Fynn and I went on a Mommy/Daughter date to a nearby farm that does a Friday morning tour for families. Fynn and I went last summer, but I thought she'd love it more now that she's older and that it meant time alone with me. 

The farm itself was awesome. Fynn had a blast checking out the horses, pigs, sheep, and goats. She LOVED milking her first cow, and even though she was nervous around the chickens, she really enjoyed petting one and collecting eggs. The whole morning she kept telling me that it was "so much fun". After the farm, we went out to lunch together and did a little shopping before heading home. It's been 3 weeks since our farm morning, and she still talks about how much she liked it. I'm thinking another day like this needs to happen soon, it was great for both of us.

Friday, July 10, 2015

3rd to last class

Last week I started my next grad school class, my first since Bentley was born and my 3rd to last... and that feels amazing. I love taking classes in the summer because I'm not working and can focus on my school work. I also love it because I just love school (nerd alert!). This one is pretty cool because it's all about study skills and continued literacy learning for students. That said, trying to juggle both kids, workouts, keeping the house clean, AND my coursework? Is proving harder than I thought it would be. Doing my work at night after both kids are asleep is the best time for me to have uninterrupted work time, but by then I'm so wiped from the day that it's hard to concentrate. That's also my only time with Drew during the day, so I had spending it reading or working on assignments. Nap time is my second best time to work, but again that means both kids have to sleep at the same time AND stay asleep long enough for me to work. Even when that happens, I'm torn between getting my work done and working out.

Okay, enough whining, I promise. I'm excited to be back at school because I'm a nerd, and I'm even more excited to be so close to earning my master's degree.

Thursday, July 9, 2015

My New Reading Goal

I met my goal of reading 30 books during the 2014-2015 school year, so now I'm reading for my next goal. I'm thinking more long-term this time, so my goal is for the next year- I want to read a total of 60 books by the end of August 2016. I'm calling this my 60 Before 30, since I will turn the big 3-0 that September. 

15 months, 60 books. I'm in need of some recommendations for this goal, so if you have books that you loved, let me know.

Wednesday, July 8, 2015

Summer Workout Plan: Week 2

I'm kind of blowing this whole workdown thing... this week was not good at all in terms of my workouts OR my eating... we'll chalk it up to the holiday weekend and Fynn's birthday. I guess.

Monday: I got the week off to a great start by doing Focus T25 Cardio at naptime. Bentley work up during the cooldown and flipped out, but I got the entire workout done and did my own cooldown by walking around with him.

Tuesday: Fail. Fynn's daycare was unexpectedly closed and she was in rare form. Even though we spent the morning at the beach and she was ex.haus.ted. she refused to take a nap, which meant no workout for me.

Wednesday: I did T25 Lower Focus which I'm pretty sure is my favorite T25 workout. It's intense and leaves me dripping with sweat and my legs shaking which sounds miserable, but makes it feel like I've made good use of my time.

Thursday: T25 Ab Intervals- I've been thinking that I was do this wrong; I end up with my back aching more than my abs. Drew watched me during part of this and made me realize that my form was off for a big part of it. Once I fixed that, it was a much better ab workout. 

Friday-Sunday: Major Fail. Between Fynn's actual birthday, her birthday party, and recovering from those two days... a workout was the last thing on my mind,

I worked out 3 times this week... here's to hoping I find more success next week. I need to do more than hope though, I have to do a better job of making it happen.

Tuesday, July 7, 2015

June Reads

June brought the end of the school year and the end of my 30 book goal for the school year. I'm happy to say that I exceeded my goal by one book which isn't a lot, but I'm still proud of myself considering how crazy of a school year this has been. 

28. The Perfect Husband by Lisa Gardner
This was such an intense book. Very similar to an episode of Criminal Minds (which I no longer watch because it gives me nightmares). In short, it's the story of a woman who realizes her husband is a serial killer and is after her. She helps the police arrest him, but he escapes two years later from prison and goes on another killing rampage trying to get to his wife. The book was a little gory, but so interesting and engaging that I couldn't put it down. I read this book mostly during my pumping sessions when I was back at work, and it was so good it made me want to keep pumping :) 


29. Attachments by Rainbow Rowell
This was such a random pick, but ended up being a really good book. It's told from the perspective of a guy named Lincoln whose job is to read flagged e-mails at a newspaper to see who is misusing work e-mail. E-mails written between two women, Jennifer and Beth, keep getting flagged, but instead of sending them a warning, he continues reading, and begins to fall for one of them- even though he's never met her. It sounds kind of creepy and stalker-ish, but the character of Lincoln is so well developed that you just end up feeling bad for him and wanting him to get the girl. 

30. The Last Boyfriend by Nora Roberts
I knew I would cave and read this book. It's the second in the series and I'm a sucker for characters I love. This one involves the brother from the first book and the restaurant owner and of course (in typical Nora form) they realize they're in love with each other after thinking of themselves as just friends for years and then the fight/almost break up... yep, I'm a sucker... there's a 3rd book and I'll probably read it this summer.




31. Eyes on You by Kate White
Another creepy book book selection. This one has a famous news anchor who begins receiving threatening notes and "gifts". As the story progresses the threats get more intense and scary, especially when she realizes that they must be coming from someone close to her. Okay, so I liked the mystery aspect of this book because it was done well and you really kept second guessing "whodunit" until the very end when you realize you should have known from the very beginning. That part was good. But the main character, Robin, drove me nuts. She avoided involving people in the investigation, she did things that were risky when she knew someone was after her and she actually ate a brownie that was left for her when she didn't know who it came from (and was dumb enough to be shocked that it was laced with something). She just kept making stupid moves and trusting the wrong people... it just wanted to slap her, so it made it hard to feel bad for her when things continued to go wrong. 

Friday, July 3, 2015

Fynnleigh Is 3

* All pictures from this post are from the amazing Erin who did our family/B's 3 month pictures.

Hard to believe how quickly 3 years have gone by. I know, so cliche, but it's really true. Fynn is an amazingly bright, funny, sweet, and stubborn little girl. I am so proud to be her mommy... even though she so often drives me absolutely crazy.








  • Fynn is also known as: Fynnie, Fynnie-Mini, Buggy, Buggy-Girl, Bugaboo, and Sissy.
  • She wears size 3T clothing, but fits into 4T as well. She is surprisingly tall considering her average sized father and petite mother.
  • Fynn doesn't eat much besides fruit, yogurt, cereal, and toast. Her recent fav is sausage, and she asks for it every night. It's pretty much the only meat she eats although she'll sometimes also eat deli turkey. Meal times are a little rough, since she doesn't like to try things that aren't on her "approved list". She does like snack and will eat apples, bananas, watermelon, mango, strawberries, etc as her only food source if we'll let her. Not that I don't like her eating fruit, but she needs to eat some other foods too!
  • She fights naps, much to my chagrin, but is usually okay with having "rest time" in the afternoon. Sometimes she REALLY needs to sleep, but doesn't... and then the fun begins.
  • She kills me with how smart she is. She picks up on things so quickly and is constantly saying and doing things that blow our minds. She can count to 12 now, but likes to skip the number 5. I'm not sure if she forgets it, or is just messing with me, because when I remind her of 5 she either tells me she doesn't like 5 or tries to convince me that 6 comes after 4. 
  • She knows some of her letters, but is strangely a fan of the letter "H". She notices and points out the letter H on signs, in books, and anywhere else she sees it and gets all excited. I think it started because of the "H"'s on the road (marking fire hydrants), so H was her first letter.
  • Talks up a storm. Lately chipmunks have been "shipmunks" and nail polish is "paul-nalish". Despite some incorrect words, she just talks so much like a child and not like a baby anymore. 
  • She loves watching Team Umizoomi which has actually taught her a lot about shapes. She knows random shapes like a crescent and even told me one day that a stop sign was a "lex-agon" which is way closer to a hexagon than a 3 year old should be getting. 
  • She is an amazing big sister. More than anything else this last year, this is the thing I am the most proud of her for. She went from being the only child, only grandchild, center of all our universes to being a big sister and almost seamlessly. My heart swells and my eyes fill with tears as I think about how much she loves her little brother and how sweet, kind, and loving she has been to him since the second he was born. I know that they'll fight, and be typical siblings, but I also know that they already have an inseparable bond- and that Fynn is the one who created that. 

Thursday, July 2, 2015

Why my kid probably won't go to preschool any time soon.

Fynn turns 3 tomorrow, and for awhile now I've been getting questions about when and where she's going to preschool. I always kind of shrug it off as a "when she's ready" and "maybe when she's 4", but the truth is that I don't know if I want to send her to preschool. If we do send her, it probably won't be until she's 5.

Here's why.

I don't want to send her to school until she's 6. Her birthday is in July, which means we'll either send her to school when she's newly 5, or newly 6. Wouldn't be a problem is Kindergarten was the play-based, social learning place it used to be. But with Common Core and high-stakes testing combined with teacher evaluation based on said test scores... I don't want to put that on my kid. Idealistically, I'd home school her, but I think neither of us would survive that and I have to do that whole annoying work thing. Short of that, I want to wait until she's just a little bit older to buy her more time as a kid and less time sitting in a chair.

Planning backwards from Kindergarten, preschool is great and all, but she doesn't need that kind of structure yet. I think a year of it will be plenty for her to have experience with the structure and expectations of a pre-k program. Until then, she'll go to daycare and just play. Yes, they read books, do crafts, and have expectations about behavior... but it's play. She's learning by experiencing and playing and having fun.

We may change our minds later. We may decide that the home daycare she's at now isn't helping her grow as much any more, or that too many of the kids her age are going to pre-k (therefore taking away the learning opportunity that comes from playing with kids her own age), or she may be ready earlier than we are anticipating. We're constantly thinking about it and reevaluating what's best for her, but as of right now, as we're on the cusp of 3, we have no plans to send her to preschool. 

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

Summer Workout Plan: Week 1

Week 1 (6/21-6/27)

Monday: Focus T25 Cardio- I love this one because it leaves me sweating and feeling like I've worked hard, but it also involves a LOT of jumping which leaves my poor calf muscles screaming.

Tuesday: Fail- Bentley wouldn't settle down for the night and only ended up falling asleep on me at 9:30, so I gave up and went to bed.

Wednesday: Focus T25 Ab Intervals & This Morning Workout plan I pinned a few weeks ago which actually left me a little sore. Ab Intervals were good, but left my back feeling a little tight which probably means I didn't do it right. 


Thursday: Focus T25 Total Body Circuit- I did about 20 minutes of this before the DVD started skipping and while I was fixing it, Bentley woke up from his nap, so I didn't get around to finish. This one was a lot harder than I remember it being last summer which could be due to just time in between or my overall weakness. 


Friday: Fail # 2- It was our anniversary and between going into work to get my laptop fixed and getting Fynn to Drew's parent's house, I just didn't make time. On the positive side; we had a great date night and Fynn slept over at Drew's parent's house which meant just a little more sleep for us.

Saturday: Focus T25 Lower Focus- I love this one. It burns, and it's hard, but at the end my legs have that awesome Jello feeling that lets you know that you've pushed yourself to your limits and been successful. Since I've always hated how my legs look, I love doing this workout because it makes me feel like I might actually make some progress. 

Week 1 I only managed to workout 4 times, leaving me 1 workout short of my 5x a week goal... here's to hoping next week is just a little better! 
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